I am sure it’s clear by now that I don’t tolerate uncertainty well.
And these next few weeks are going to challenge me.
This week – first week back in school – is a busy one. I won’t be able to work at home one day, as I typically do. That’s usually when I clean, and do the grocery shopping, since I don’t have to commute.
This week, I’ll be here every day. I know, normal for most people, but not for my routine. And I kind of live and die by it.
So I have been obsessing over when I will do what. What day will I clean? When will I shop? Should I do some one day and some the next?
It’s exhausting. It doesn’t achieve anything. What would be better is to just make a decision based on my schedule and go forward. For some reason this is never my first course of action.
So today I am planning to actually take steps to figure out what I will do each day.
I have other things I need to worry about – time to take this off my mental list.
I frustrate myself sometimes, with this intolerance for ambiguity and change. I know that’s how I am wired, but it doesn’t make me like it any more.
Time to review the calendar and make some actual decisions. Sheesh.