We just finished a family vacation.
In the woods.
With 8 people (including 2 teens-almost-adults) who often have their differences. And I’m being charitable here.
My conclusion after our week of togetherness: Families are messy. And I would not change mine for the world.
But it is astonishing how quickly we revert into old patterns, interactions that mirror those from earlier in our lives.
Yet we all survived. I think we all enjoyed ourselves… with the possible exception of my spouse. (more on that later in the week, I am still processing that one and know I will need to do some writing here to help me do that…this trip really reminded me of how different we are, and raised still more questions about our long-term compatibility and whether we have grown into two very different people…)
I, personally, loved it. We were in one of my top 3 or 4 favorite places on earth.
And yet, that also made me feel responsible for making sure everyone else loved it, as well.
Even when it was clear that they were not as enamored of it as I was.
I also felt responsible for “duds”, which happened a few times on this trip.
So that made it a bit stressful.
But oh, oh the times of solitude I was able to enjoy.
The awe I felt – as always – when I came upon one of my old favorites, or a new one, and remembered why I love this place and others like it.
It was rejuvenating but stressful.
Fun but also challenging.
Relaxing but tiring.
In short, it was everything that family vacations are supposed to be. I would not have changed it for the world.
And now? Back to the real world, yet again. Easier this time than last…but still challenging. I’m working on regaining my equilibrium and, quite honestly, enjoying the silence and solitude of my everyday life. Introvert heaven.
But I carry with me more memories of a place that will always, always have my heart. Remembering the awe-inspiring views, and hoping to capture more of those moments in my everyday life. Remembering to look up and out, and not always at the computer screen or the book page. Taking deep breaths. Challenging myself physically and (remember, family trip) emotionally. Learning still more about who I am, what I want, and what I love. Bringing those pieces back into my everyday life… while anticipating the next escape to another favorite place.