I know it’s almost the new year, almost a new decade, and I know it’s the thing to do right now to plan for big changes.

But I can’t help but feel that they are coming. And yet, I also feel as though I am coming to a place where I am more like the me I used to be than I have been for a long time.

It won’t be the same, thanks to the intervening years… but taking my life back for my own, making my own choices, and moving ahead as I want to (not how others want me to) will help me, well, “…arrive where (I) started…”

I don’t think it will be easy. I don’t think everyone close to me will really, well, like what’s happening.

But it needs to happen.

Professionally, other than a general blah end of semester slump, and a feeling that I am never going to get grant funding again, things are actually going really well. I know I’ve said that before.

Personally, I am finally getting to the point of making decisions and moving ahead whether others are with me or not. I’m giving up on old grudges, forgiving and forgetting some… shall we say… less than happy memories of relationships with some people, and embracing the weird me that I am.

It’ll be an interesting start to 2020. Very different from the start of 2019. Yet… I’m eager to see what comes.